Sunday, May 15, 2011

Contemplation

I am not a professional writer, not even know how to arrange my words to make them meaningful, and attract the attention of my spectators I suppose. It is very much essential to make people take interest in you, in your point of view. Because if they are not occupied with your representation, they would consider your truth, even your soul feelings, farting and sick, and hence will go away leaving you behind, letting you go dumb, and speechless.
And me being an amateur at writing, it is very much difficult for me to make my friends understand what my silence stands for, although I seldom found people in my life that I dwelt since I was born and till now, for whom I shall entitle them with the tag of the major word “Friends”.
I believe in the fact that shining of eyes always doesn’t signify beauty inside them; it may also be so because of tears that are embedded in them. Not always the tears of joy.
Smile is the best jewel that human can wear to make themselves look lovely. But who cares about the person who suffers so much to get that jewel. And if some how he gets it, still convulses of anguish, in order to let it remain at its place, because it is very much difficult to hide that it is just an imitation.
I have gone tired of my feelings, my sensitiveness towards the actions that play around me, and I suppose that they are getting cancerous. I have gone tired of making out senses about what I did was right or not. It would seem philosophical and will not tally with the mindsets of friends of ours, at the current scenario, where everybody seems to be “overbusy”; although I am afraid if this very word exists or not, but I suppose my learned friends would have got the meaning of what I wished to say.

I never talk. Please mind this thing that I am not saying that I talk less. My “no talk” doesn’t implies that I show rudeness to people, or there is something called unfriendly nature in me. I am a worthy friend, honest, and very much social as well. My so called “No talk” policy is just to keep up myself with what people do, and not to let them know that I am unhappy with what they are doing, and me myself don’t want to hurt them by pointing out the loopholes in their intentions behind doing so. I know you will find this weird, but I can’t help it. The whole system nowadays has undergone such a change where each thing that people do, makes me raise questions with myself and makes my trust upon them go in grave danger.
I take responsibility to reach the Supremo to make my job done, I do all arrangements, I prepare myself in every aspect that seems within my capabilities. But I always fail to make myself prepared to tell lies, to be dishonest at some juncture where it becomes essential for my job to get done. And consequently my job fails. I come back empty handed. I can’t impress my people, because at current course of time, it is very much difficult to impress people by the help of honesty and truth. I have stopped my attempts of getting myself go crooked as I have realised that they can never be embossed in my soul, because it is preoccupied with my firm impression of truth.

Politeness and realisation of obedience by each other in every relationship is very much necessary. But I don’t find this now in this changed world. May be I am wrong because I had been using my heart to observe these things instead of my eyes, powered up by my specs. People do certain things to one another, by the name of prank they call so, declaring their rights to play them on their friends that more often lead to a hitting sensation in their friend’s heart. But none of them enrol themselves into a serious stroll due to such hip hop events. But I do mind such things.
Now I suppose that you would have agnised why I prefer my “No Talk” policy. I can’t change.
Am I wrong if I think this way? Why have my heart and soul teamed up against my brain? Brain is set for current challenges and latest upbringings, but my teamed up heart and soul sing another jargon. Aren’t our people wrong somewhere? And if they are wrong, how do I assume that so many people can be wrong at the same time. Why do people compromise for things that are not right, that are not healthy?
I want to talk. But don’t know how to make myself talk. If my words made some significant meaning to you, then please do give comments.

GOD SHALL BLESS US ALL
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ANSHUL GAUTAM

15 comments:

  1. nice wrk anshul keep it up n best wishes :)

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  2. TRY TO BE A GOOD PERSON. TRY TO BE AN HONEST PERSON. TRY TO BE A LEARNED PERSON. SUCCESS WILL FOLLOW YOU SOONER OR LATER. MAMTA DIDI WENT TO SEE JYOTI BASU, THEN CM, TO PRAY FOR JUSTICE FOR A DEAF DUMB PREGNANT WOMAN WHO WAS RAPED BY SOME CRIMINALS, BUT SHE WAS DENIED MEETING BY SECURITY PERSONS AS SHE HAD NOT TAKEN APPOINTMENT. THEN SHE SAT THERE OUT OF CM'S OFFICE WITH INTENTION TO LEAVE ONLY AFTER SEEING THE CM. HER HAIR WAS GRABBED AND SHE WAS THROWN OUT OF THE WRITER'S BUILDING BY POLICE. SINCE THEN SHE NEVER COMBED HER HAIR PROPERLY NOR SHE WENT INSIDE WRITER'S BLDG. NOW SHE IS GOING TO ENTER WRITER'S BUILDING AS CM HERSELF. THIS IS HER DETERMINATION THAT COUNTS. THIS IS HER EFFORTS THAT COUNT. SUCCESS AND FAILURE IS IN ALMIGHTY'S HAND. WE CAN CHANGE ONLY OURSELVES, NOT OTHERS.

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  3. very touching n nice.... liked ur first blog post.. keep it up..best wishes

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  4. @satish bhaiya and nitesh bhaiya: Thanks for appreciating my work. This helps me keep myself motivated and guided to draw out more and more from my inside.

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  5. @papa: Its true. I got the most estimable argument from you through your comment, for the article that I posted today. I wish to incorporate within myself with such determination.

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  6. Of all the other things, i catch hold of these few words : Politeness, obedience, challenges, silence, smile, friends, words.
    First of all, I try not to comment publicly, not that i dont want to, but for reasons, I would better not explain this publicly. But this is somewhere I cannot help but comment.
    Silence, can be weakness, but for few of us, is an expression in itself, a sobriety of dignity. Seldom, is it necessary to let it loose, not to the extend of the loss of it.
    Next comes, Challenges. Well, each moment in our lives are a challenge in itself. A challenge to do better than the last one. In this case, it is bettering the expression and the communication. Kudos to you for have accepted the challenge. Shall always be successful.
    Politeness - is the way to succeed, not necessary is the word - obedience. Please be polite to all, humble, good person to all.... listen to all, but do only what suits your mind, your interest and your priorities. Having said that, I need to add- please look after what the people who loves you need :) donot dissapoint them
    Words- an unparalleled discovery. it was discovered to express your needs, your concerns.. your feelings. People around you arent God, or they have seen you for a considerably less period of them... they will not understand you the way your family does. Silence, cannot always help... it is where the use of words come... and the moment they understand your silence, they are .. your "friends".

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  7. I can understand your no talk policy,but is it must to talk? trust me nowadays you have to pay for every talk,you can understand.10 years ago 'talk' was not a matter to mention about because private firms(mobile,internet,facebook,orkut ,twitter etc.) were far away & it was limited to face to face personalise interections(supporting) but now talk is globalised,it's a thing of market , we can't say anything about its quality,quantity,trusty acceptance etc.what we can do know? we have to search for a company (like airtel) having most of the talkative consumers but again you can join the company only if you accept the agreement from above.So according to economics we can balance any thing present in market in any form via management ( MBA--mind before avoiding ). so you can't excel according the way you are thinking ,you have to accept the current and management is must,but it doesn't mean that the change is required in you,it is simply a thing of view.

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  8. That was a good piece of wrting. As for the thoughts reflected in the writing - i agree with your papa's post. It is important in the life to be kabil than kamyab - that is what i would like to add.

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  9. bahot mast hai bro, i think words r less to describe it. these posts r not to read but to feel ...waiting for ur more posts.................

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  10. gr8 job.......and yes a super like

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  11. Xcellent man.......Ur vocabulary n thinking is fabulous!!!!
    More or less same things r happen wid me my frnd.......This effort of yours is really mind-boggling......this is ur 1st blog n hoping that it is not the last??? once again vry congratsss 2 u dear....ALWYZ KEEP UR SPIRIT UP,,,,.....,,,,,

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  12. great yaar ........................keep going!!!!!!!

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  13. tu to scholar hai bhai..............congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!wishing u best 4 a great future.

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  14. if ur heart says u r right then don't need to change urself, keep this intact becoz every body does't possess this rare quality.....................

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